Thursday, December 9, 2010

4 months (almost 5)

My piggys achievements:
  • Rolled over about 5 times in last 3 weeks
  • Has her 2 front teeth coming in (the second one broke skin two days ago)
  • her grandpa gave her a taste of apple (she liked it)
  • tried mashed potatoes and peas one day ago and it was somewhat of a success
  • Took her first professional pictures, but wouldn't smile

I've been busy

Originally posted September 3rd, 2010
So it's been a while since I last gave an update, but there have been some major changes. The biggest of all would be my little girl was born July 20th, 2010 at 6:42 A.M. (4 or 5 days after her original due date). She came into this world with her eyes wide open weighing 6lbs 13oz and 19 1/2 inches long. My mom, fiancees mom, and my fiancee were in the delivery room with me, after spending the whole day/night before with me in the hospital. It was a painful experience, but all worth it when I got to hold my little one in my arms for the first time. I had her naturally, got an epidural though at midnight only because I couldn't handle the pain I'd been experiencing since about 4 A.M. in the morning of the 19th. Granted the pain I'd felt at 4 was nothing compared to the pain I felt at 10 at night that same day.

I did it though and I could not imagine my life without my little piggy (she's a serious eater).

Monday, April 5, 2010

25 Weeks

So I'm about 6 months along and that means only three more months left (well if she goes to full term), but I am so nervous. I never thought I'd feel this excited or scared about something. Just to update you a bit because I've been lagging a lot on updates, on March 5th we found out we are having a little girl and on March 19th I switched to the doctor that will be delivering our little girl. Not much has happened, my mood has dropped a bit though. The last couple of weeks have been really hard for me, I've felt so alone and frustrated. Yes, I do have my fiancee, but at times it feels like he doesn't care what happens to me as long as our little girl is okay. Which I want her more than anything to be okay, but what about me? Doesn't the fact that his mother stresses me out every chance she gets bother him at all? Doesn't the fact that as of right now we have no room at all for our baby and don't even know where we're gonna live bother him? We don't have that much time left and he says he knows, but does he?

Our baby shower is June 5th, both my mom and his mom are throwing it at my parents house. The guest list is pretty big and I'm worried that not everything is gonna come together. There's gonna be too many people, not enough room and not enough food.  I just hope we get at least half of what we need cause with all the bills we have..I don't even want to think about cause thinking about it makes me tear up.  The cool thing about this baby shower is I picked an Alice in Wonderland tea party theme, so the backyard of my parents house is perfect. Bad thing is we're having this shower right about the time it starts heating up. I guess it won't be to bad since we're having it later in the day rather than when the sun is right overhead. Right now I'm just crossing my fingers everything comes together, we're having a hard time finding any alice in wonderland stuff because everything is geared towards the new alice in wonderland. I want the disney cartoon alice in wonderland.

So I'm not starting not to fit into the jeans I got when I first found out I was pregnant and my little girl is giving me stretch marks. Their not bad right now, but thats why I have my fiancee rubbing coco butter on my belly every night. She's also moving a lot now a days, I can feel her little kicks and flutters. Its a nice comforting feeling, even if she's kicked her daddy in the head two or three times. I get worried every now and then just cause I read all these heartbreaking stories about women losing their little ones at the around the same stage of pregnancy I am. Feeling her move around kind of takes the edge off.

I feel like such a nutcase right now with everything that's going on, that I don't even feel like celebrating my birthday next Sunday (April 11th) in fear that it'll be a big flop.  Ooh, well..Lets just keep hoping for the best (as usual).

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

I'm gonna be a mom!

So how did this all start...
Well sometime around November I started feeling sick, I noticed that I would only get sick at night or sometimes from certain foods. But ignoring the fact that it only happened with certain foods, I thought it was just a stomach bug. I'd been sick in October and thought the illness had followed me into another month. Thanksgiving came around when it was time to eat i had barely ate anything on my plate when the sudden urge to throw up appeared and I didn't finish my food. When I got home though I ate a whole can of pineapple with no problem. I'd been urged by a couple of my close friends and my fiancee to take a home pregnancy test, so my best friend got me a test to take. I took the test, which in my head was just to prove everyone wrong. I wasn't pregnant, I couldn't be pregnant, how many times had I thought I was and boom the next week my aunt flo came along. So when that test showed the little plus sign, I was in complete and utter shock. First I cried a little bit, then I got happy, and then I got nervous.
Once that had worn off a little bit, I waited for my fiancee to get home to tell him the good news, he pretty much did the same thing I did, except there were no tears.  The next day I took two more tests just reassure myself some more (you know those things can be inaccurate). They once again confirmed what I had already figured out, now the next step was how to tell our families. Would they be angry with us? Disappointed? Excited? Now the trip to my parents house was a funny trip, we got there had dinner and right afterwards my fiancee turns to my parents and says "I need to ask for you help to pay for health insurance." I honestly believe they thought there was something seriously wrong with me, but then when the questioning looks came, my fiancee said "because she's pregnant!" (all this while holding a fork he'd used during dinner). They were excited and shocked, they hadn't expected this to come up. Now my fiancees parents were just as happy for us (well my fiancees mom more so than his dad, he just laughed).